Dear OneLife Networx,
Next year,me and my long-time boyfriend will finally get married and settle down. Honestly, I am still virgin and I am already 35 years old. My boyfriend knows about it and I am proud of it. My boyfriend who is also 35 is no longer innocent when it comes to sex. Before he became my boyfriend 5 years ago, he had a live-in partner for almost 3 years.
Since he became my boyfriend, he made some attempts to "do it" with me, but he is very understanding every time I said no. Though there are times when I want to surrender my virginity to him but I always remind myself about my personal vow that I will only give "it" to my husband on the night after our wedding.
My married girl friends always warn me that sex is a very important aspect of married life. Having to little or too much of it can break or make your marriage.
I am bit scared because I am not a sexual person, I am worried I might not be able to satisfy the sexual needs of my future husband. With all the opinions I am receiving from my friends I am now willing to surrender my virginity to my boyfriend if ever he will ask me again. What do you think? Please help. I need your advice.
Sex is the ultimate expression of love. Sex is actually a very sacred act. But in our modern times, sex is now some sort of an obligation or a routine that should be performed by couples. Yes it is true that sex is part of any mature relationship, but sex should not be the center of it.
As long as you have deep love for your boyfriend as he is to you, I don't think your being conservative will not be a future issue. Your feelings towards each other is enough to lead you to your sexual activities. Just go with the flow of your feelings. But If your personal conviction of "no premarital sex" is important to you, then your boyfriend should support you on this. His respect towards your conviction is a living proof that he truly loves you. If you are scared that he might look for other girls as outlet to plug-in his sexual urges, then he do not deserve your virginity.
Also, stop listening to the warnings of your married girlfriends. Sexual activities of married couple (even unmarried ones) differ from each other. What's true to them may not be necessarily true for you. You and your future husband should create your own sexcapades that is suited to both of you. Forget about the sexual standards dictated by society. Your marriage is about you and your future husband and your girlfriends opinions are merely opinions, you should not take them seriously.